As an abused child I tended to shy away with people and to fill my own empty heart I ate to comfort and provide the love I longed for. Despite all the love I am offered today I still find it hard to connect but I know where it comes from and I work on it. Building positive relationships was first brought to my attention through lifeskills411.org where Bay Area CEO Michael E. Parker talked about what the earmarks of a positive relationship were. To my surprise I was my own negative relationship.
Thankfully Mr. Parker continued his work for adults in the You Are a CEO movement and I was able to connect the dots and see how my personal character defects impacted my working relationships. Communication is essential in every relationship and when you don't talk about what is going on in your head, some people (like me) over eat to stuff the feelings they have. Today by God's grace I am aware of this and have certain tools to help me work on it.
As I recognize the amount of food that is required for my body's health I can realize that over eating is an act of unloving myself. As an adult I can only love others as I love and care for myself. When I eat too much and have too much body fat I hurt myself and those who love and care about my health.
There are times I want to blame my childhood, my parents or the worlds for my issues with food and rightly so. LOL. There is an epidemic regarding weight issues and the habits Americans have however I have been blessed with the knowledge I need and faith to carry that out. Pray for me and all those who struggle with what they eat. Its not an easy battle but it can be won a day at a time. If Oprah Winfrey can struggle with weight issues why not me? It does not mean I am a bad person or unworthy of love and friends. It simply means I have an issue with food God can and will fix if I am willing to take the right actions.
After relapsing on my diet and gaining a ton I have restored my self and my life to sanity and have lost 12 lbs. Its a modest yet monumental goal. I celebrate the gift of willingness God has granted me to strive and achieve success.
Be Blessed Today and Always.